Tatyana, hugs to you. It will get easier and one day you will be able to get your things xx

I don't know how i am going to let do of Mark.. while he is confused and not sure what he wants I'll keep hanging on I know it. Talking with him yesterday was like no time had passed and we feel back in to the old rythym of chatting - I miss him.
I'm emotionally involved again.. I never intended this to happen, I was moving forward and happy. Now I am still happy but there is a burning desire in me to reconcile with Mark if I get the chance. What we had over the 5 and half years was magical to me and if he has made a mistake being with her and can right his previous wrongs then I have to give it a chance I think..

In saying all of this I have no idea what is really going through his head other than he misses me.. he's still living with her so until he figures out what he wants I am in a limbo state of mind.

I am only giving him until the end of May (as I said before.. it gives me a deadline and something to focus on to move towrds.)... if he is still 'confused' then, well it's over no matter what he thinks he wants.