"now I usually just have mixed states or a manic state that consists of extreme anxiety, irritability, moodiness, impatience, restlessness...so uncomfortable." I can totally relate to this description of hypomania/mixed stage.

happy&sadglad&mad - I don't have much to add, but just that I really relate to what you feel. And you are not alone. Work with your p-doc and do your best to get the medication right (HUGS))