Turquoisea~

Appearently I had a brain fart. . Seriously though. I've just lost faith in myself and others who have been there for me IRL. But mostly in myself that I can change things, and be more honest with myself about how I am dealing with some things. I'm trying to feel things deeper than I have in a long time. Just wanting to find some clarification. And it scares me to actually see this stuff. And then to have to tell my T about it too. I don't really want to get into what the stuff is. Its just very personal. But I know I need to face it, and since all this went down Thursday, I have talked to my T again and scheduled an appt.