(((((( Elysium ))))))) sending you BIG hugs! What you describe is similar to what I have been going through in my own trauma work. The body remembers what the mind had to forget. T told me it was because the mind of a child is not equiped to handle the sx issues. It is also not able to handle the emotional betrayal that this sort of thing has with it. Somewhere in your heart when you were that age, you KNEW what was going on FELT wrong. You felt that because your father KNEW it was wrong. And kids pick up on the emotional energy of a parent even if they don't know logically what it is that they should be experiencing or why. They "cue" from the parent. It happens all the time if a parent has a stranger come to the door and they are holding a baby. The parent has a shift of being on-guard... baby feels the tension and so baby starts to also be tense... baby cries... parent realizes it is a friend and they relax... baby feels the relaxation of the parent... baby starts to calm down.

Thank you for posting your question because you just helped me find my own answer as I replied to you. Hope this helps!