Hi turquoisesea,

I'm so sorry to hear you are feeling so low right now. I have been there and do know just how you feel. Are you taking any meds right now? Something like xanax might be helpful (?) if you are feeling especially anxious and can't sleep.
I get caught up in this spiral where I feel so hopeless, that nothing is going to work out (ever) and that I'll just never have the energy or feel any better. Hang in there, turquoisesea, try to keep in mind that this is the depression talking... I think Lisa Michelle has a good point about trying to just focus on the moment to do something soothing whenever you can (at least until therapy again). Is there an old TV show you could watch online or a movie you like for some distraction? Also, is there any other way you can contact your T, by e-mail, or written letter? Often during a tough spell I just leave a long rambling message on my T's machine, which makes me feel somehow better just to know that she knows what I am going through... My best wishes for you to feel better.