just posted to you in your thread a very similar sentiment!! gmta

we're staying safe..........sick as all get out but safe.

yeah when life breaks down to the minutes and hours to get through the day it is soooooooooooooo difficult to remain positive......as our usual sense of the passage of time is "oh? a week has passed? felt like a few hours...." either too much spaciness or way too much awareness of the minutes and seconds...........where is that middle ground?

like you we are choosing life and attempting all we know how to make this life better than it has been.

we're both investing in ourselves...........so where's our return??

that we're alive and have senses of humour through the darkness is the payoff. that we're still trying.

fondly,
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