Hi everyone.
This week is the anniversary of my Grandpas death and Im not doing good.
Its already been a year since he died

Today my sister was treating me horrible and she now has a new boyfriend so it means i will once again be on the back burner.
I would be okay but my friends are all outta town except her
I really dont have too many friends thoughh

I used to have alot before all of this but then I slowly pushed everyone away...
now im left with a handful and they dont feel like sturdy friends

I want to patch things up with the people i pushed away but im afraid its too late or that they hate me or that my other friends who have been there for me lately will get angry.

Im also nervous about what my mom will say....

Sorry this note is so spastic :/
my mind is moving faster then my fingers
i guess all I could ask of yall is some encouraging words please...