This isn't really a question......

I'm an older woman diagnosed with Bipolar 1 a few months ago. I had my first manic episode last fall, followed by hospitalization, then severe depression, followed by another hospitalization. I was discharged with a Bipolar 2 diagnosis and inadequate meds. I became even more depressed and crashed my car into a tree,(the result of psychosis.) Back into the hospital for a longer stay. That's when the diagnosis was changed to Bipolar 1 and the meds were changed as well.

Now I'm healing serious physical injuries, as well as trying to get meds to work for me. I thought I was doing pretty well mentally, but I'm again slipping into a deep depression. I'll see my therapist tomorrow and my psychiatrist Wednesday.

There feels like nothing left of my former self, although my husband and sister try to tell me I'm still me. I guess I'm trying to say that my life is in shambles. My injuries keep me from working out, my job is history, my driver's license suspended, (although driving is the last thing on my mind) and there's no-one to talk to except my husband and my sister. I want to look for the light at the end of the tunnel, but I can't even see the tunnel......

I'm usually a positive person, and I know there are people worse off than me......but this pretty much has me derailed. All comments and/or PM's welcome. I keep reading on Psych Central, now I really need to reach out for help......greylove