Hey, no need to be embarassed. Like it or not T's are authority figures, and I know I tend to think what they say is right and what I think is wrong. Besides, it gets tiring to go through T's and not find the right one. When I was looking, I started to doubt that anyone could help me. Then I got the right T and it's been great between us ever since. I was also recommended a new pdoc, so I switched. And surprisingly, this pdoc is the only one I know who cares, listens, and helps out. He always returns my calls the same day. He will adjust meds if a minor adjustment over the phone so I don't have to go in every few days since I pay out of pocket. You can find the right people for you. They're out there, don't give up!