Pachy, I hope it is ok to chime in late.

Often times on PC, I may read a thread, try it on for size(see if it fits in "my" world), and if so, wear it for a while (through my own personal experiences). Sounds quirky.

Here is what I "wore" from your thread...

My second T, I saw for 1 1/2 years. She was a good T, with many, many years of experience. She is also a Clinical Director. One day, I went to see her in "crisis" mode. I had been eating at a restaurant alone when my old T walked in with his wife. I knew I had two choices....to stay and endure being that close to ex-T(and his wife) who I had deep feelings for and who I felt had rejected, abandoned, betrayed, etc...me when he terminated or I could leave.It was too painful to stay and I chose to leave. My anxiety level was really high! When I tried to discuss this with her she said I was experiencing psychotic transference. I had never called him, driven by his house, given him a gift in therapy or out. NOTHING! I was angry. I felt she was wrong. She later had a conversation with him, where I was discussed. She shared part of the conversation with me. I didn't feel she could be trusted any longer, and terminated with her. I asked my G- T, my M-T, and my new I- T ( months after we began)about her comments, all thought her assessment was wrong.

On Monday, my kids and I had left my office and were driving down the road when a car pulled out from a private retail drive and slammed on the brakes to avoid hitting me. My panicked oldest child, sitting in the front seat, says" Mom, that lady almost hit us!" I look up and it is ex-T's wife. Was it intentional? No, however I instantly thought had the situation been reversed, based on my 2nd T's opinion, it would have been perceived as intentional by me. So frustrating.

I hope you find a therapist that understands.