and depressed and so wanting to drink. I can't see a way out. It's not going to get better. The bipolar will never get better, the depression may subside in time, but it will also come back in time, over and over again. I can't stand it. I can't stand anything anymore. I just want to be normal.
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Lauru-------------That's me, Bipolar and Watching TV 
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
---Robert Frost