Hi,
I am new at this forum.
According to my therapist I am 'a little' dissociative (ddnos, not did). It causes me to react strangely or differently in certain situations, but not so that i don't remember my reaction or what I did. I know I react strangely but I cannot interfere, it's like I'm at the background and watch things happening (she takes over), without being able to react.
There are times that I/we feel the same way. For those within me this situation happens when I feel scared or when an alter that is not fully connected to the whole comes forward. But it has happened less frequently the more healing work that we do.
But it does not feel as if I can speak about 'we'. It's more 'she and i'.
Do you all feel like 'we', as I read in your threads?
I use both depending on wether or not what I am discussing comes from the whole or if I as a single alter is exspressing the opionon of that one part of me. It can be confusing for those out side of us that do not understand the theory of many yet one body.
Or are there also people with ddnos here, with a dissociative disorder that is more internal than external (words of my therapist)? And feel more like 'me and the other part'?
For those within me, we have learned to allow alters to feel independent of the whole then as healing takes place all are more able to accept the fact that we are all one being but because of trauma we have sepereated to survive it.
I'm still very confused about it all and would be very glad if anyone could understand this feeling. Thank you.