Hi Mayple,
I think its really good that you want to reach out to people.
I know it can scary, but all of us at PC, we are here to help you.
Is there anyone inside that maybe can talk to the part that loves
to destroy and explain to them that that is not the way it has to be?
I can almost promise you that they love to kill and destroy because it
is all he or she knows. It feels "normal" to them. Or maybe they feel like
they have to destroy relationships with people because they are scared
reach out and get close to people. It can be scary to become vulnerable and
allow people to get close to you.

Our PM box is always open for you all, ok? You can PM us anytime if you need
someone to talk to.