So today pretty much sucked. It shouldn't have, things weren't really that bad, but I'm sure you all know how sometimes that just doesn't matter.

I just sold my horse... he's my life, and he's always been there to hug and talk to when no one else was. He has a great new home, with a girl who's already done new things on him that I didn't think he could do. But I already miss him so so much, he was so special to me, and now it's probably going to be FOREVER until I get another horse. I wish I could at least have a dog where I live... anything that I could take care of and get some love back would be great.

Also, my hubby has been on my case all day. He can't seem to just let stupid arguments go like they should, he has to keep running over it again and again and always making me feel like everything is my fault, it's always my fault that we get into arguments and our relationship isn't what it should be.

So I guess I'm just depressed that things aren't going good in my marriage right now, and I lost a whole way of life when I sold my horse. He was my last link to my life when I was very happy, and now that's gone too... I'm only 20 and I've already failed so so much at life. The future looks horrible and empty and just more of the same, I just wish things could go good for at least a little while...