I hope I don't sound too harsh when I say that you can't count on your mother to sort you out and make you better -- and intentionally making things worse to get her attention will just mess up the situation even more. You say that you can't hack it at work; well it sounds like your mom can't hack it with you. It doesn't make her a terrible person or anything, she just doesn't know how to give you the help you need.

I've read through some of your posts, but I couldn't tell if you're seeing a counsellor or a therapist. Are you? I think you might find that helpful. Hang in there.