I have had a terrible time in therapy. Its mostly because I've gone through some really tough things. My T says that if he had been through what I have - including with therapists - he might never darken the door of a therapist again - and I told him I almost did not!

One thing I just wish I could get past is that I had a bad history of mistreatment at the hands of "mental health" professionals - and what was done to me and what I endured had no aspect of "mental health" in it.

I was actually really badly trapped and traumatized years ago with the whole mental health system. I can't go into all of it, but I lost 10 years of my life to this - and I now easily feel trapped or unsafe - just from simple things.

I need to be in therapy - but its horribly hard for me. I react to the smallest things - I just wish I could get past all that trauma. To be honest, I think I am even having flashbacks from those hard days right now.

If I could just get past it and go forward with therapy!