If I could just get past some things

I have had a terrible time in therapy. Its mostly because I've gone through some really tough things. My T says that if he had been through what I have - including with therapists - he might never darken the door of a therapist again - and I told him I almost did not!

One thing I just wish I could get past is that I had a bad history of mistreatment at the hands of "mental health" professionals - and what was done to me and what I endured had no aspect of "mental health" in it.

I was actually really badly trapped and traumatized years ago with the whole mental health system. I can't go into all of it, but I lost 10 years of my life to this - and I now easily feel trapped or unsafe - just from simple things.

I need to be in therapy - but its horribly hard for me. I react to the smallest things - I just wish I could get past all that trauma. To be honest, I think I am even having flashbacks from those hard days right now.

If I could just get past it and go forward with therapy!

Want to add one more thing - I told my T that I felt sorry for him having a challenge like me! Poor man.

I know from experience. But... you did not entirely "lose" those years. Yes, it altered your life, but you lived through it. You learned from those years. That can serve you now.

cocoa58,

Unfortunately, so many people in the world have gone through absolutely horrifying events. It is so sad and unfair ~ almost everyone in this world agrees with that statement.

That said, it does not mean that people who have endured years of misery and sadness don't deserve help in getting through their pain. T's study for many years hoping that they could help people get through their misery. When they work hard with their patients, the T's feel a sense of pride and accomplishment. Pride for helping the patients see the light in their lives. It's a wonderful accomplishment!

Try to focus on that side of the coin. The positive side, yes, but it's also very true!

Best wishes in getting through. You can do it!