I watch quite a bit of TV. You see where i was born, South Africa, we never grew up with TV. The year i left, TV was introduced into the country. When i watch I compare myself to all the more fortunate people than me: the people who have achieved a lot (it seems they have done this effortlessly) the people who feel so at ease in front of the camera, the people who are happier than me. And so every time i watch TV I feel down and sad because my life has been difficult. You see I havent worked much. Only 2 years (as a librarian)before I left SA. It seems that women here consider their job as being essential to there confidence and well being. I have always done courses, volunteered and done community work, but this isnt considered "work" in the real sense of the word. i have not learned "street smarts" and independence I would like to feel confident in myself just for being me. I have made a success in raising my son, but he lives far away and I cant bask in reflected glory!
dawnhopeful