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Originally Posted by zooropa
this is heartbreaking. I am so proud of you, Jexa. I didn't even read your whole post because it was too much. I can't imagine coming to that last-time-I'll-ever-see-you place with my T, and yet I know I will be there someday. How you get through that is a mystery to me. But you're doing it, Jexa. I'm so proud of you. And my heart hurts for you.
I love you.
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Oh, zoo. I'm so glad you're here. Thanks so much.
Getting through it is a matter of dealing with the moments as they come. Riding the wave and accepting the sadness as it is. That's all that's keeping me from going off the deep end right now. I know I won't die of a broken heart. I keep reminding myself that feelings are not dangerous.
Yeah, most definitely, the pain gets pretty bad. I know my neighbors must think I am pretty messed up since my sobbing gets a bit out of control sometimes. And especially today. But whatever, here it is, it's okay to feel like sh**, it's okay to sob my guts out, I'm a human being.
So that's what gets me through.
I know you'll be able to do it, too. Right now is not the time for you, not even close. But when the time comes, you will survive it, too, zoo.