Thanx for your prayers. I still am w/o a church bc my husband does not like the one we've been going to and I don't drive so I can go some place myself.Things are getting harder these days b/t me and my husband too bc I can't get him to understand that I have a broken heart and lack of love for him after 29 years. He thinks I'm just having another bi-polar episode.I can't get thru to him and bc I live only one SSI I have no money to go anywhere on my own or leave him. I'm stuck. So I've turned to Mike's Hard tonight. I hate it and I hate doing it, but I'm so scared of being in this space forever so I bought some and took some Darvocet. I'm a mess. I am NEVER LIKE THIS! I am normally a very Christ-centered Christian. I am scared. I wish I was at church right now where I could pray with someone. Please keep me in your prayers. Linda