Wow, your messages are all so caring, you have no idea how much I appreciate it. It brings tears to my eyes to know that you can understand how shocked I am by these events.

I don't need to go to the ER. It is something I've done occasionally is try to hurt myself with knives or scissors on my arms. My pdoc said it wasn't me trying to kill myself or do "cutting", it was more an act out of total desperation. This time I didn't even break the skin, it just is a deep tissue injury that will leave a bruise. I am not suicidal at this point.
Thanks again to you all,