The worst thing is reliving this thing everytime I close my eyes and everytime I look at a child or hear a child I see HER. I wonder when this will ever end.

It's terrible when one day you love children so much and can't wait to have one and the next day you can't stand to be around them and can't stand to hear them because of something some sick jerk did to you. I still love kids but I cannot be around them anymore. It just breaks my heart too because I still love them terribly. I know I could never have any children now.