Thank you. The problem is, my constant self-doubt has put me back in that situation over and over again. I wonder if I was wrong, I'll go back, apologize and they do it all over again. I used to talk to my Dad about this, but after so long of advice gone in one ear and out the other the topic irritates him and he doesn't wanna talk about it. The other day I was told by a friend of mine that if I didn't stop talking to them he wouldn't talk to me anymore, he was tired of seeing me getting hurt. I do feel even here I shouldn't mention it, as I've talked about these two same people quite a lot and I still never end up following much advice. I want it to be different, I really do, but the doubts and the loneliness.. When they're saying nice things I believe they're right, things are changing.. Damn my gullability.

I'm in a group type thing that's trying to help me fix this, but I've only been twice and of course, things take time.