Thread: Losing Control?
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Old Jan 19, 2011, 10:21 PM
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Originally Posted by RockyForLife View Post
I used to cut because it was the one way that I could actually control something in my life. Now, I'm not so sure. When I think about it, I realize that IT controls ME. I dress to hide the scars. I lie to avoid the questions. And I realized it wasn't worth it. But I still cannot get myself to quit. I managed not to for a while... But of course I had a relapse. And I can't stop.

So my question is... Has anyone ever been truly able to stop here?
I WISH. I cut up my legs pretty bad the other night and the back part of my arm near my elbow and my wrist (superficial, I didn't hit a vein and never had the balls to do it) I was in such a spiral. Now I look rediculous but atleast it's winter.

We're all playing a dangerous game with this compulsion..and it is a compulsion I can't stop it anymore than I can stop my depression
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