hey, thanks, all of you...

All of you bring up up really good ideas and suggestions, as well as tremendously warm, loving support. I can't express how good you have made me feel.

I don't live far from my daughters, so I see them several times a week, which is a blessing. My ex is also being very kind and supporting, also (she a nurse who suffers with BP also).

I have now been through 5 jobs in the last year...To be honest, I'm not quite sure how to fll out an application with ~no~ references!

I guess I could do temp work, which pays next to nothing around here, (mainly because nothing else dies, either). I guess one of the things that I beat myself up over is that I'm a pretty smart fellow, why can't I figure out a way to make a decent living?

The other thing that scares me at the moment is psychiatric care...I had good health insurance which basically ended during my hospitalization...I had one appointment with my pdoc since (October), but I have not even paid that off yet ($150/pop!) There are almost no community mental health care resources here in my area...I do have an appointment at the end of January with an NP at the one place that does a a bit of money, but I'm really worried...I haven't had a lithium level since I left the hospital, who knows?

OK, enough whining for today...thank you all so much...I love you all.

DJ