Yeah, anxiety is a major problem for me...usually it results in a nice depressive episode, but I seem to be bypassing that so far. I've begun to cut back on AD's in an effort reduce cycling. It's early yet, but it seems to be working so far.
I've just SOOO much anger and frustration built up inside, my nerves are really shot. Whenever I am faced with a crisis or even a little obstacle, I just freak out and go in to "freeze" mode. Today's was inspired by finding out I was going to have to spend a huge % of remaining funds to fix my po' old truck.

I have a relatively new T, we're still trying to figure out what we're doing. she's at a United Way sponsored agency, so that's affordable...NAMI can help with the meds some I think. I'm applying for disability and such, but that will take months if it works out at all...I've got an appointment the end of January with another pdoc (NP, really) because I can't go see mine anymore...

I guess what really pisses me off is that I have, over the last ten years or so watched BP take almost everything I was or had--my career, my reputation, my self-esteem, my marriage, my friends, my confidence, my home...and I'm just tired of it. (See, I didn't even scream that time. Ain't Xanax grand?)

Thanks for listening. I gotta say, though, it felt really good tohit the keys like that!

DJ