It sounds to me like your prescribing doctor is a complete idiot. She doesn't want it on her conscience to prescribe meds to a nursing mum, even when there are plenty of safe meds out there? Does she want it on her conscience if you get ill again?

I don't know what to suggest. I nursed my son for a long time, and was up and down quite a bit during that period. (I didn't know what was wrong with me back then, and didn't want to go to the doctor, since I thought they would take my baby away.) Having been in something like your situation, I think you really could do with a different prescriber... but I gather that's proving difficult for you to organise.

Is there a patients advocacy group who might help? I've found them to be a life saver... but I'm in the UK. I don't know what the situation is like in the US.