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Old Feb 14, 2011, 06:52 PM
IceCreamKid IceCreamKid is offline
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Originally Posted by geniousjess View Post
I've been attending AA since October 2009. I can't even put together a month. I just left again in january because i convinced myself i never had a problem. I just ended up drinking everyday and all day. Nothing had changed since i stopped drinking. A week after i quit i was doing things that made me sick, and its worse cause i know that i have an option to go back. I called my sponsor and started going to meetings again. I just want to be able to accept being an alcoholic and get better. I am miserable every time i drink. The thing i hate those is having to do stuff. My sponsor makes me hit a mtg every day, and she makes me read the big book and call people and a million other little things that i just don't want to do. i guess I just want to be happy and have the things she has, but i don't want to do anything to get them. I'll have 30 days on the 20 of this month, if i make it till then. I'm really trying to listen this time, i hope i make it. I just can't keep playing this in and out game anymore.
Congratulations on working on your sobriety. I believe you have discovered the secret, which is that we inch towards good lives and that sometimes it might not feel like progress but it really is. Not wanting to play an in and out game anymore is progress of a major kind. I send you