...in your situation, it is ALL the result of cultural conditioning... If you had been brought up in a western culture we wouldn't be having this conversation... but then, I suppose that's a rather silly thing to say...

I'm going to meditate for a while... perhaps if I do, when I come back I'll be able to see with more clarity than I have right now...

There IS a way for you to find peace in your life... I have to believe there is...

Oh... I have NO doubt that your parents are EXCELLENT parents... that isn't in question or even on the table for discussion...