When I say, I want to do school at home, I mean online. Here where I live, I have an option of doing school online. That is what I want to do, I don't want to go to school and to be around so many people. It really scares me.
I have to work soon and I am scared about that. So many people, too many people. I am shaking and I don't know why. I just, I can't handle going to school and going to work. Guess, I'll just have to keep pretending that everything is alright again.
Because no one believes that this is real. They all believe that this is just a joke for there attention. I don't want anyone attention. I don't want there pity, I just want someone to tell me that I am not alone. I don't want anyone to tell me what I NEED to do.
I am thinking about moving in with my friend soon because living here is triggering me to harm myself. I am eighteen years old, so yes, I can move out.
But, I am going to try and make it to the summer. Get my money and get my car so I can leave and make a better life for myself.
But, we all gotta start one step at a time. I hope I can do this today.