I just wanted to touch in here for a bit, am looking for some sanctuary. I can't meditate lately, though I've been trying to listen to dharma talks to keep the principals alive. I can't keep up with reading everyone's posts, though I want to. I was just triggered very badly a few minutes ago, while online looking for animal photos. I stumbled upon something really bad, and I'm quite messed up over it. I so want this image out of my mind. Dog welfare is my number one hot button issue. I can't stop crying and shaking. I will never go to Google animal image search again. Forgive me for this post. I truly hope that I am not triggering anyone. I'm so so sorry. I try so hard to avoid coming upon this sort of thing, but it was too late. There it was, and now it's burned into my mind. Pema Chodron speaks of "staying" with what arises, but I only want to flee. I know that these are only thoughts, mere thoughts, puffs of mental smoke which will pass. It will pass. And there will be peace again. I hope that everyone here is safe and well and that the practice is growing and deepening for everyone. Metta.