Like some of the others who have posted, I had no "before", since my PTSD is from childhood abuse. I was either in the abusive situation or living with the PTSD symptoms.

I've always considered not having a "before" to be both good and bad. On one hand I have nothing to look back at and be depressed over losing, but on the other hand I have no idea what I'm shooting for in recovery. I have no idea what me without PTSD would look like.