darla, i wish i could agree with humor but in this case addiction to drugs and alcohol KILLS people every day. just pause a minute, isn't choosing life a better idea? once you're gone, you're gone forever. life sometimes has real life bad stuff but i can attest that getting sober and off drugs GAVE me a far better life than i ever could have imagined for myself. towards the end i prayed for death i was so desperate. no way out i thought. that's the "gift" drugs and alcohol gave me. it promised to make me happy and took away everything and everyone in my life i cared about.
please know i am not 'preaching' you the "gospel" cause i've been where u are now once. after losing my best girlfriend in my whole life she took an exit i needn't mention here. i am still devaststated by her death many years ago as are her now grown kids.
i chose life with help. sober 21 years. i am so glad i was given the opportunity to live. i have 3 grandchildren i would've never known. today they are the joy of my life.
i hope you will find "you are sick and tired of being sick and tired" of this vicious cycle you are in right now. i hope you won't be just another sad statistic. i don't think your thread will keep others from drugs. each one of us makes our own choice. but you've convinced me your drug use is trying to destroy you.
darla, if you're ever interested about what i've written you can pm me any time. if not, that's ok too. i don't judge you. it is what it is. only you can make a choice.