If you have trouble talking, you can always jot down a few things and give it to your T to read. Then your T can ask you questions you can answer about it, which might be easier than having to blurt everything out unprompted. Therapists are great about maintaining your confidentiality--they know that is important. They are there for you, to help you! Do take a step and let them into your world. I think it will help. Sending you a hug!