Hello Im 18 years of age. I love sports played basketball, baseball, and football in highschool and excelled in all. I am currently a freshman in college. I have a great relationship with my parents and had an amazing childhood. This is why i dont understand why all of a sudden these thoughts come into my head. It all started 2 months ago when my dog of 17 years died. I was really hurt by this, devastated actually. It was shortly after this when i started having these terrible disturbing thoughts. Thoughts of hurting my family. I dont understand why i have these thoughts. Im afraid to tell my parents for fear of them being scared and thinking im nuts. All i want is these thoughts to go away. I really did believe iwas going crazy until i started doing research online, and saw some symptoms of OCD that i have. When i was in 7th grade i had a great fear of having a disease. I have no idea why but i couldnt help it. These thoughts eventually went away. Its very strange though because 3 weeks after my dog passed away my best friends dad died suddenly. This is when i became extremely paranoid of losing one of my parents. I even had my dad schedule a physical. Then it goes back to thinking of violent aggressive unthinkable thoughts. I love my family very much and would never do anything to harm them, am i going crazy? Need some advice thanks alot!