Am i going crazy?

Hello Im 18 years of age. I love sports played basketball, baseball, and football in highschool and excelled in all. I am currently a freshman in college. I have a great relationship with my parents and had an amazing childhood. This is why i dont understand why all of a sudden these thoughts come into my head. It all started 2 months ago when my dog of 17 years died. I was really hurt by this, devastated actually. It was shortly after this when i started having these terrible disturbing thoughts. Thoughts of hurting my family. I dont understand why i have these thoughts. Im afraid to tell my parents for fear of them being scared and thinking im nuts. All i want is these thoughts to go away. I really did believe iwas going crazy until i started doing research online, and saw some symptoms of OCD that i have. When i was in 7th grade i had a great fear of having a disease. I have no idea why but i couldnt help it. These thoughts eventually went away. Its very strange though because 3 weeks after my dog passed away my best friends dad died suddenly. This is when i became extremely paranoid of losing one of my parents. I even had my dad schedule a physical. Then it goes back to thinking of violent aggressive unthinkable thoughts. I love my family very much and would never do anything to harm them, am i going crazy? Need some advice thanks alot!

Bighoss Welome to PC.

NO, you are not crazy and your not going crazy.

I have OCD, like you, I had terrible thoughts of hurting my youngest child which devistated me as a parent and it brought feelings of shame and guilt. I couldnt even look into his eyes for a long time.

Coupled with my OCD I also suffer from depression and Anxiety so I did see a T for several months and began taking medication that greatly reduced the symptoms.

I am not suggesting that medication is the only answer though. I would start by seeing a T for a proper DX first. After that talking with your T would be very benificial. Also know that these thoughts you are having are common in people with OCD. I know the agony you are going through.

I wish you luck with this. Please keep is posted

Bighoss, you are not crazy. Losing your dog, of 17 years and then your best friend's dad is a huge blow!! Huge!! Your feelings may be irrational (thoughts) but it has something to do with your losses.

Please see a therapist, asap, and talk this out.

When my dog, of 15 years, died, I did tons of irrational things and couldn't sleep and was obsessive about everything around me. I was scared to death that I was going to lose a family member (another family member, as he was definitely that) and it took quite awhile to work through it.

In the meantime, today, google pet loss sites and find a place that has a message board. It helped me tremendously. Also, please feel free to PM me. I work from 1-9 today but am home all weekend. I'll try to help you.

xoxoxo pat

You are NOT crazy....... just a little unwell.

HANG IN THERE - and keep writing, it truly does help.

LoVe,
Rhapsody -

First off, Thank you all for your help and support, it has been a rough couple months. I still havent told my parents about my thoughts, but the thing is this past week has been great. I have barely had any of these negatie thoughts, if they do come along they only last for seconds. I just hope this can continue. Do you think i should still see a therapist??

YES, by all means keep the appointment - for what does not ail you today could come back next week or in a month or two. Seek the help and advice that you need now so that you can deal with this matter if and when it should arise again.

LoVe,
Rhapsody -

Welcome to PC, hoss. (Please try a few more paragraph breaks in your posting, it makes it easier to read and then respond )

The loss of a favorite pet is a traumatic event for anyone! I'm sorry for this. Always found that the only thing that helps that hole in the heart is a new pet.

I think you should still see a T (therapist.) And share your thoughts and concerns. Ts help us learn to work through life issues, so that as other events come along, we handle them better. Learning these things early in your life would be a great asset to your adult life, imo.

Again, welcome.

yes indeed, do see a therapist. xoxoxo pat

BigHoss,

Changes in the types of thoughts we have can change from over time. The changes you are describing do sound ununusual, and if I were you I would get to a good professional ASAP.

Best wishes,

Jane (EJ)

hi there and welcome!

i do think seeing a qualified therapist would be such a benefit to you, and no, i don't think you are, or are going crazy.

I remember my daughter's freshman year of college. What a time for her!

You've had so much change in such a short time in your life. It can so increase anxiety and depression can creep in as well. Losing a beloved, almost life-long pet can be devastating. I'm sorry for your loss.

It sounds like you've had much change, and a massive loss, and are reacting to those. I think talking with a therapist about those will really help.

We're here too!

Good luck and please keep us posted on how you're doing!

KD

Welcome welcome welcome....
You came to the right place, to let this problem your experiencing in your life all out and loose. I figure if they can't see me, then how can I be embarrassed. It's a good way to release things you normally wouldn't. Healthy too.

I can't really give you advice about your problem, but I can assure you, your not a crazy lunatic. A crazy person wouldn't even be aware that this type of thinking is abnormal.

You sound completely sane to me with your happy youth filled life. It's just everybody has strange thoughts after something traumatic happens in their life. It's the brains way of coping with what happened.

My advice would ultimately be to just be open to your parents, get the help you need, and work through it. You can do it.

Good Luck, keep up the good work.
Desirae

Thank you for all your great advice and help. I really do think im having these thoughts because of the things i have went through.

Too be honest i have never lost anyone that i have been really close to in my life, well that was untill i lost my dog of 17 years. I meen some people just say, o its a dog, but it wasn't like that for me. Im 18 years old, she had been around since i was 1. I didn't know what life was like without her, i guess i always pictured her being around forever to meet my kids. I was just a complete mess for a couple weeks and thats when the thoughts occured.

To make things worse, my best friend's Dad died suddenly and completely unexpectedly 3 weeks later. I had just begun to get better, and then bam i was attending the funeral of my best friends Dad, a guy i knew very well.

I still haven't told my parents yet, it has gotten alot better, we got a new puppy 4 weeks ago which has helped, but i stil lfind myself comparing her to my old dog. Which is unfair to her. I know i should see a therapist, but i dont want my parents to think im crazy.
I guess im kind of in a bind, but the thoughts have gone away for the past week or so, we will see what happens, i will keep you all updated.

Once again thanks alot for all the help.

Dear Hoss: I'm so glad that you posted again and let us know how you're doing. I've been thinking about you.

When my dog died, I've never been so lonely. I totally understand your feelings about your loss. It takes a long time to get to a point where it doesn't hurt so much. You'll get there, but there are days I still cry about missing Tippy.

Don't worry about comparing your new puppy to the friend you lost. That's normal. And besides, part of the spirit of your old friend might just return in the new dog. I truly, truly believe that happens. I've had many things happen that makes me know that Tippy's spirit is in my dog, Fayeroe.

Please keep me updated. xoxoxo Pat