(((((((((((Suratji)))))))))))))

I really, truly believe that healing has it's own timetable. Even when we are not with T, we are processing, thinking, learning, growing. T told me once that most of the work of therapy happens between sessions, and that feels true to me. Often, I will see T, leave feeling all confused and awful, and start to come to some insight and understanding over the next few days. As much as I *think* I would like to see T every day, I think that it might actually slow things down in the end (weirdly enough) because my brain would never have time to process and "catch up".

Even now, on break, with NO T appointments, phone calls, e-mails...I am still processing so much, still working really hard.

Having said all of that, I have always seen T twice a week. For me, it was more of a safety thing...I couldn't hold on to the connection well enough to do any work when it was once a week (I was always just working to reconnect) and I had a stupid amount of trauma stuff to work through. So, I needed to feel safe with T, and I needed to feel safe enough between sessions to allow myself to talk about the things I needed to talk about. I don't know if seeing T twice a week sped up the process, but it definitely made the process possible.

Healing takes time. Sometimes a long time. It's hard not to feel impatient, but it sounds like you are working hard and making huge strides. And that's something to be very proud of