I really, truly believe that healing has it's own timetable. Even when we are not with T, we are processing, thinking, learning, growing. T told me once that most of the work of therapy happens between sessions, and that feels true to me. Often, I will see T, leave feeling all confused and awful, and start to come to some insight and understanding over the next few days. As much as I *think* I would like to see T every day, I think that it might actually slow things down in the end (weirdly enough) because my brain would never have time to process and "catch up".

Healing takes time. Sometimes a long time. It's hard not to feel impatient, but it sounds like you are working hard and making huge strides. And that's something to be very proud of