I've always believed that everyone else looks great, and feels confident, has great friends, lovely homes, while I don't fit in anywhere. This has been going on my entire life. I'm trying to find acceptance for what I can't change, trying to change what I can. It's SO hard for me to let others know the parts of myself and my life that cause me shame and embarrassment. My impulse is to withdraw and hide. Yet, there's a healthy impulse as well that seeks connection. It's such a push/pull.
I feel the same way lavieen rose.
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