Okay, so I officially feel really, really bad tonight. Like. Really bad

I'm sat here listening to music and all I want to do is cry my eyes out. My fiance's Mum broke her ankle today. She broke her other ankle a while ago and it's only just healed, but yesterday she fell and broke this one. She came home from the hospital sobbing her heart out and she said to me "Oh Kirsten, I don't think I can cope with another 6 weeks off work". I felt so sad and awful for her

So, because work have messed around with my hours, I'll be helping her this week and running around for her. I don't mind doing that because it makes me feel useful and it gives me a break from feeling down all the time..

Just. Last night was such a bad shift at work. Everyone seemed to want a piece of me and not in a good way. It seemed that everyone just wanted to snap at me and blame me for everything. I'm sick of it and I just feel like such a punch bag.

Even my own Mother is acting like a cow to me. And she's not known me for 16 years of my life yet the time that I make the effort to get to know her, all she can do is be nasty to me because I wasn't there for Mother's day because I'm living 200 miles away?!?! Jeez. It's not my fault she's an alcoholic and I didn't want to talk to my drunk Mother. Or is it? Is it such a terrible thing that I'm protecting myself from insults and bullsh*t from my drunk Mother? Today I just want to cry.

Cry, Cry, CRY.