You like to be in control, to have control. You can control some things, but not all things.....you can control yourself. I see this as a positive thing. We can look at the world and see so many out of control people. They act like they don't care one bit how they are projecting themselves to the outside world. IMO, at least when in public, you do need to have some self control. I see so many that do not.

You can't really control other people, their actions/reactions/responses. I would like to sometimes! One of my biggest pet peeves is people talking LOUDLY on their cell phones in public. I have heard way TMI about their lives.

Letting go of control is like trusting that the other person's reaction/response will be OK, that things will still be OK even if it isn't the reaction/response I want.....I can still be in control of my response to that.....That is one hard lesson to learn. I don't see it as trying to control another person, it is just looking out for me and taking care of myself. Keeping myself safe from harm. What may be good or okay for one person, may not be okay for me. Is this controlling? Taking care of me and my needs? Guarding my emotions? Guarding who I do and don't let in? I think this is just common sense.

Kinda like who we allow to come into our homes. I am careful about not allowing strangers in. They may be very nice people, but the risk is not worth taking for me. Maybe that is perceived as controlling. Not sure. I just see it as common sense.

Also because my emotional interior has always been so stormy, feeling so disordered, I have tried to keep in order, control what I can.....I have tried to appear controlled, be controlled, because I really feel so uncontrolled. Maybe some of this is similar for you, with your situation, externally and internally? Sure it does. Don't we all experience this to some degree?

Anyway, I think an assignment like that, to explore your personality, will be a huge one......good luck!