Hi all-

I'm staring at the possible end of multi-year threats of divorce from my stbx. I have barely any food and I'm homeless as of Monday. I walked last February due to escalating verbal violence and toxic interactions with my stbx. I'm asking for support the local church and friends have been very kind. My main issue, I'm so guilty and sad over the pain my daughter is feeling right now. I don't feel safe around my stbx and by my short history given the most I've been able to do is bike ride to pick up the little one and visit at a park. It's really not enough but I feel I need to improve my situation before taking on more visitation. It's not that I don't want to, I do desperately do in spite of my stbx stating over and over that I don't. The little one was crying tonight on the cell phone with me. I burned the last of my minutes to hear her in pain and felt so very powerless. I have email until Monday and have suggested she write to me. It was txt and voice by cell until the minutes burned up. I've been able to visit with these play dates twice a week but that has been very thin for support I feel. I've requested three days a week from the stbx but something always keeps coming up on her end to sabotage it. The next week rolls around and I get requests from stbx to visit more. I feel like games are being played here, on my honor, I'm not playing there is a child involved in this. Am I missing something here? My main life goal is to life stabilize and be a good father for her. What more can I do now, but be encouranging to look forward to the next play date we have and repeat that I love her and miss her too? Please share and advise...