Thank you for reminding me that it's okay to write what I feel and need to say. The anxiety made me edit my post. Isn't that so sad...

I started to get scared of who might read it, psydonym or not. What if someone recognizes me? I shouldn't have said what I said...

For those who didn't read my initial post, the nutshell is that I run a large team at work and have just let go of an employee for poor performance. He is now suing me for wrongful termination based on racial discrimination, stating that I was targeting him, employee abuse, and a number of other extremely hurtful lies.

I have the full support of my employer, our lawyers and full documentation to support me but I am obsessing non stop about the situation. My pdoc has been wonderful and we are trying to manage this without adding extra meds but it is throwing me back into a dangerous state of anxiety. He actually said to me that I can't let the anxiety start taking over my life. Easier said than done.

All I do is obsess over this endlessly. It is taking over my life. This weekend has been a total mess and all I've really done is visit my pdoc and sit on the couch and mope. And it's only been a week. And it could drag on for who knows how long. I am a wreck.