Well, again I say, "I didn't go." I have one meeting a month that I really don't have an option of not going to, if I wish to stay involved. (I mean, I agreed, you know?)

I didn't go. Does it matter why? I know why, and it's not an "excuse" but what difference does it really make? They didn't see me, I didn't get there... no interaction, no socializing, nothing...

Saw T again today... not till Monday now...

I'm supposed to play computer games for 4 days to distract myself or something? IDK. Guess that's better than wondering why I'm still around.