AvidReader,
I have done partial hospitalizations a few times, and although I was initially not thrilled about the idea, it has always proved to be amazingly helpful for me. The combination of structure, intensive therapy and med management, support from the other group members, etc, etc... has turned my depression around more than once. In my own life, there are times when I get to the point where what I am doing is obviously not working, and I need to surrender and recieve help from others. This is what has been helpful for me. I obviously don't know what exactly will be right for you, but I hope that you can find a way to be open to receiving the support and care of others, whatever that ends up looking like. Depression, especially when one is feeling suicidal, is too much to handle by ourselves. I wonder if there are more options out there than depression is allowing you to see?

peace,
garden gal