Perhaps what might help is to look backward. I mean look at, really look at the successes you have had in your therapy.

Maybe talk over this progress with your therapist. Allow yourself to feel pride and gratitude at what you have accomplished, versus what you haven't.

I think it is okay to worry over and feel anxious about going to the doctor for medications. Who wouldn't? I went, but carried my first prescription for prozac in my purse for at least two weeks before I even had it filled. Then it took me several days just to go pick it up.

I gotta say though, prozac helped me a lot.

I think where you are is okay. No it's not perfect and yes you want more, but please do try and look at the good you've done and say "you know, i've done well".

Little baby steps, lots of confidence building and lots of self love.

Peace to you.