Thanks! Yeah 3 years is a LONG time. I stopped shortly after I got pregnant with my now 2 year old(so I feel like I am failing her too, since I stopped for her). For her, for fear of someone seeing(lots of dr appts), etc. It got easier as time went on. But now, its like the "voice" is back and thats what I want to do to deal again. Ughhh. And I am afraid to tell T.