Unfortunately, in the eyes of the law, it probably wouldn't constitute rape. However, you feel taken advantage of and your feelings are always valid. The best thing for you to do is to realize this is not your fault. I would highly suggest counseling to help you figure out how to compartmentalize your feelings and be able to use this as a learning experience and a way to become stronger from it. I'm so sorry you are dealing with this. I really hope you can learn to process these feelings and accept them and use them to your advantage. You have gone through something very traumatizing and are NOT a victim. A victim doesn't survive. YOU are a survivor and THAT is something to be proud of. You have taken the initiative to change these feelings and get over them. That is more than a lot of people do after events like this. I hope you can see your strengths through all of this.