its not my friend its my cousin she is constantly hounding me to hound her over the ****EN car. I should not be alive anymore. Stroke of luck is that i have a doc appt tomorrow but i think i will kill my self before hand. Just so i can getout of this life. Im sick of it sick of being down all the time.. im worn out i cant keep taking my cousins rants and ravesw of her bipolar anymore. She says she gots control of it RIGHT i have more control of mine than her., all i want to do is take a bunch of pills and tgo to sleep.