I was fearing someone would say something like this but that's probably only because you state the truth! (And the truth hurts).

And no, I can't accept that fact. I suppose I would be better off ending this. I tried to seriously end the relationship once before but it was before I had sex with him. And I took him back because I was so curious about what sex would be like for the first time. He of course had already had sex before and doesn't really seem to have the right to take the virginity of a girl he can't truly make room for in his life. I know that I essentially did give him that right, and at the time I truly wanted to, but he really should know better because he's older and a more experienced (although I am now highly doubting wiser).

Now that we've had sex and have continued to do so on a regular basis, I realize that my life still has a void that is needing to be filled. I had thought sleeping together would take care of that but I know better now.

I can only hope that once I dump him, he will not fall back into his old ways of either
1)asking to have me back, because he thinks I can fill a void in HIS life (and I can't)
2)going back to being a serial dater who never really gets close to anyone.

At least he got to be close with me for almost 2 years, as I am an understanding and forgiving person.

But this relationship is going nowhere fast. He will never learn anything unless he feels a need to change. This will all go into one big circle - He will never feel a need to change if he doesn't feel bad or guilty about his choices. He will never feel this unless he becomes uncomfortable with his choices and stops lying to himself about being right all the time. And he will continue to believe the lie when his mother keeps supporting it. And she'll always support the lie that he can do no wrong, because she wants him to feel dependent on her. She wants him to be dependent on her because if he leaves her she loses her meal ticket. She won't change unless she feels bad about the way she's brainwashed him. And she won't stop trying to brainwash him unless she sees that he makes the effort to stop her. Until then he'll just accept all of this (yet make vague attempts to complain about his life all at the same time). But that will only happen if he decides and wants and feels a need to create change.

If I leave him I will feel very heartbroken; I don't think I can imagine being with anybody else because we have so much in common and I love him so much and I think he really does love me too, despite all of his problems. But should I leave him there will at least be solace in the fact that this fate is ultimately up to God. If God truly intends for me to be with this person, then He will make it so.